There is something I've been wanting to tell you for months. It's exciting and scary and making me a little stressed.
Well, here goes, I'm Pregnant!
Nah! Just kidding. I'm not pregnant, although part of me just wishes that I was. Then my little life that I've been enjoying for the last few years would remain the same and I could keep on doing what I'm doing.
Sometimes you know God is leading you in one direction and as much as it makes your stomach flip around, fill you with breathe-into-a-paper-bag type anxiety and turns your comfortable world inside out, you know you just have to do it.
Lately, I've had to tell myself to stop whining, relax and just do what needs to be done.
In case you don't know, I am going back to school (as in teaching) in a few weeks. YIKES!!
It is really the dream job for a mother of three little ones. The position is 4 mornings a week teaching Gr. 2 at the school that I went to as a child, taught in for a few years and love to pieces. Brooke will be going to Kindergarten there 2 to 3 times each week. It's a Christian school, so I get to share my faith and help my students see God's plan and goodness through what they are learning. I am comfortable there, know all the staff (my brother teaches Gr. 6 just across the school) and, once again, love it to pieces.
Then why all the whining and anxiety Kathryn you may be asking?
It's because I LOVE my life at home with my kids. I like be the boss of my own schedule, being the main influence on my kids' lives, putting them down for naps, giving them snacks (and sneaking one for myself), playing Candyland, watching them play and fight and wrestle one another. But mainly, I just like being at home. I'm sort of a homebody and always have been. I like being able to wake up and eat my breakfast at my own leisure, tidy up the house, ignore the mountain of laundry, decide to spray paint something or weed my garden or rearrange the furniture.
I just like being at home!
So my hesitation with going back to teaching, has nothing to do with the teaching, the kids or the school , but about me having to bend and change and live life a little bit different for awhile. Yes, I'm freaked out a little, but I know it's going to be okay. God is faithful and has truly provided this job for our family.
Back in March, Jason's boss decided to go in a different direction and sell the business. He offered Jason a chance to buy the lawns and landscaping business, but we declined and felt God leading Jason to go back to college. After studying for weeks to pass a math acuplacer test so that he wouldn't have to upgrade before entering the program, Jason got into college for business management. (You're welcome honey for all those math problems I sent in your lunch box to work!)
All at this same time, this 40% position came up, I applied (I think I was the only one, because it's really not a great position for someone who wants to be a full time teacher, but great for a busy momma like me!) and got the job!
God also provided an amazing summer job for Jason doing concrete work, where he could work his tail off and save up some money. Then, he was able to tweak his schedule so that he didn't start class until noon and could work a little bit in the mornings before school.
So really, I don't have much to complain about. Jason's the one who should be anxious and whining, but he's not! He can actually say that he's excited for what's ahead. He even got a new backpack that he's super excited about!
Once school starts, I don't know what is going to happen with my blog. We do have plans for other rooms in the house that I will for sure share with you, but the flavor and content of this little blog may change a little as I do, but I'll still be around. I like over-sharing waaaay too much to just go away forever! ;)
Your thoughts and prayers are coveted during this transition! Thanks for all your love so far!
PS. I also have it waaaay to good with who is watching the kiddos while I teach. But I'll share more on that later. You will be too jealous when you hear about my childcare arrangements!